I’m zipping down the 10 East Interstate, my car is stuffed
to the gills with everything I own, and I’m munching on a mcdonald’s double
cheeseburger that tastes better than it should. Life is good. Life is close to
great. I was unhappy in Los Angeles so I decided to make a change. And
somewhere between then and now, this road trip has morphed into a three day
exhibition of me patting myself on the back. I am the master of my own destiny.
The captain of my own ship. The singer of my own song. Life is great.
I’m halfway
through my cheeseburger and Texas when I run into my first problem. A great
line of cars appears on the road in front of me, all of them in a dead stop in
the middle of the vast Texas desert. As I apply the brakes, I notice a sign on
the side of the road that tells me I’ve come to a security check point. Nuts. This is only a minor annoyance, but
I’ve never been a patient person, especially when I still have another fifteen
hours of driving ahead of me. I take a bite of my burger and stare out at the
dry abyss and admire the view. The sun is still at least an hour away from
setting, but the way the light hits the land makes the sand look orange, the
cacti brown, and the rocks yellow. I feel like I’m on a different world.
As I’m
admiring the view, something out of the corner of my eye catches my interest.
There is a cop on the side of the road, on foot, running against the line of
cars. Well, not running, but jogging. And he’s not alone. With him, on a sturdy
black leash, is a giant German Shepard, who matches his bipedal partner’s
consistent, patient stride.
The curious
thing is that neither one seems to be paying any attention to the cars next to
them. I can only assume the dog is of the drug sniffing variety, and yet neither
him nor the officer has so much as glanced at a single car. They just keep on
jogging down the road, down the line of cars.
Psh, what a
waste, I think. Taxpayers’ dollars are being used for this kind of security?
Any one of these random vehicles could be sneaking off with ungodly amounts of
nefarious drugs and these bozos wouldn’t have a clue.
As the dog
and his officer get within a few cars of me I am allowed a better look at the
two of them. The thing I find the most
fascinating about them is that they seem
to be sharing the exact same facial expression. It’s that no-nonsense, we-are-the-law-and-you-aren’t
look that I’ve seen on a thousand other cops, but this is the first time
I’ve seen it on an animal before. For some reason, I can’t tear myself away
from this very serious Shepard. I’m compelled to watch him as he and his
partner strut up beside me, ignoring the cars along the way.
But then
something happens.
As the six-legged cop crew comes to my car, as I am enjoying a close up view of this
serious dog, I see the animal’s nose lift up, his ears prick forward, and his
head swivel towards my direction. And suddenly his eyes are on me.
Then things
kind of go in slow motion.
I watch as the dog’s huge mouth opens. I half
expect him to shout something like “There he is! That’s the criminal!”
He doesn’t
do this, but he might as well have. Because instead he lets out a
ferocious bark, and then launches himself at my driver side window. Two meaty
paws attack the glass that’s inches away from my face. What the hell is going
on?
“Pull
over!” orders the officer as he pulls his partner off my car.
I do as I’m
told while I try to get a handle on what has just transpired in the last five
seconds. Why has this dog taken a sudden interest in me? I look around the
piles of belongings stacked around me. Nothing but clothes, notebooks and other
personal, non-illegal items. I am completely dumbfounded. Then I realize what’s
in my hand, my delicious cheeseburger. The old girl must have been hungry, I
figure. I mean that’s the only aroma in my car that would be attractive to a
dog, so it’s gotta be that, right?
The officer approaches my car, he's a big man, in his late-thirties, with a grey mustache. He asks me why
his dog would be so interested in me. I confide in him my double cheeseburger
theory. He is not impressed.
“Your cheeseburger?” He lets the word drip
from his lips in disgust. “You think my partner picked you out because of your cheeseburger?”
I open my
mouth to argue my case but he cuts me off.
“Listen
kid. This dog is trained to detect only two things: Smuggled people and
smuggled drugs. Now, which one do you have?”
The absurd
image of a small Mexican man hiding at the bottom of my stack of laundry and
suitcases, whispering silent Spanish prayers to himself, pops up in my mind and
I do a poor job of hiding the smile that comes with it.
“Are you
smiling at me, kid? You think this is funny?”
“Absolutely
not, officer.” I say, trying to convey complete sincerity.
“Well, why
don’t you step out of the car and we’ll see just how funny this all is.”
I step out
of my car and follow the officer as he takes me a good ten yards away from the
road. I try to focus my attention on him, but it’s hard to ignore his partner,
who’s behind him, back at my car, his nose inches away from my door, whimpering
with desire to explore inside. What the
hell do you smell in there anyway?
“Look at me
son.” He says as he puts up a hand, partially blocking my view of the scene at
my car. “This is important for you to hear." I look him in the eyes, the intensity contained in those pearly blues of his are disconcerting to say the least.
"Now, what’s gonna happen next is you're either going to tell me right now what you have in your car... or my partners, who are on their way,” he uses his other hand to point down the road where I see a group of three more officers jogging towards us, “are gonna let the dog into your car. He’s gonna search through your stuff, and if he finds anything, anything, then me and you are through. Do you understand?”
"Now, what’s gonna happen next is you're either going to tell me right now what you have in your car... or my partners, who are on their way,” he uses his other hand to point down the road where I see a group of three more officers jogging towards us, “are gonna let the dog into your car. He’s gonna search through your stuff, and if he finds anything, anything, then me and you are through. Do you understand?”
We’re through? You’re going to break up with
me if you find people or drugs in my vehicle? The smart ass in me yearns to
utter these words, but my maturity, and survival instincts, know better.
“Yes, officer, but I promise, there is nothing
illegal in my car.”
“Oh no?” He
smiles a disconcerting smile behind his grey mustache. “Well, let’s just found
out for sure. And while we wait for my partners, why don’t you tell me a little
about yourself. Where you coming from and where you goin’?”
“I’m from
Los Angeles, and I’m going to New Orleans.” I see a twitch of excitement on his
face after I say this, as if the towns of New Orleans and Los Angeles have
reputations for illicit activities or something.
“I see,” He
replies. “And exactly why you goin’ to New Orleans?”
“I’m moving
there.”
“Why?” He
asks again.
“I don’t
know, to get a fresh start, I guess.”
“Why?”
This third
why catches me off guard. Am I expected to explain the falls and failures that
have led me to my current state of being?
“…because I
was unhappy with where I was and the person I had become, and I’m hoping to
change that with a new beginning.”
“I see.” He
says with zero inflection.
His partners arrive at the scene. They call
him over and he motions for me to stay put and goes to them. As they confer, I
continue to rack my brain, trying to figure out what the dog might be smelling.
Did I have anything in my suitcases or luggage that I shouldn’t? Nothing comes
to mind. I barely use my two suitcases for anything, my hamper is just filled
with clothes, I don’t have a backpack…
A cold bolt of lightning hits my spine.
I do have a backpack, I realize. I remember because I randomly found
it as I was packing. I thought I had lost it the last time I used it, when I
went to the Music festival Outside Lands, but there it was under my bed. Did I
check the backpack before I packed it in my car… I don’t think so. I actually
remember it was one of the first things I threw into the back footwell of the
car. I was in such a hurry to get everything in. But what could be in there? I
don’t remember putting anything incriminating in there…
Oh damn, I think, and another cold
bolt of lightning strikes me. I remember a certain glass instrument, about two
inches long, given to me by some music loving hippy at the festival. The clear
memory of me putting it in the outer pocket of my Jansport backpack crawls over
my eyes. Did I ever take it out? Is it still inside my backpack?
“OK, son,” The Grey Mustache returns. “So Officer Daniels here,” He tilts
his head to the scowling officer standing next to him. “he’s gonna stay with
you while I, personally, go with the
canine and see what’s what.” He gives me a smirk as he says this. As if to say
he knows what’s going on, and he’s gonna be right there when the shit hits the
fan.
I watch Grey Mustache walk to my car, pats his dog one time on the head, then looks
back at me and smiles. Then, he opens my driver door. I watch as his furry
partner eagerly hops onto the seat, stepping directly on the burger without so
much as an afterthought, immediately destroying my theory, and then positions
himself so he’s facing the mound of crap in my back and seat, and immediately
dives his head and front legs into the barrage of my belongs, digging furiously
down towards the bottom. I watch his head momentarily disappear into my stuff. I feel my balls lurch up into my stomach.
Seconds later, I watch the head
reappear, this time with a black Jansport backpack hanging from his mouth. I
watch as he leaps out of my car and hands the backpack to his partner. And
finally, I watch in disbelief as he puts his nose against the outer pocket.
“ Officer,
there might be a pipe in there.”
“A pipe?”
Officer Daniels replies, gravely. “Is there anything in it.”
“No.” I
tell him, “I’m sure of it.”
“Not even ash,
residue or resin?”
“Well…
maybe some of that.”
He shakes
his head a bit. “Well, son, Texas is a zero tolerance state. So even a trace of
marijuana is a felony.”
I hear the
words, but they don’t make sense. I feel numb in a way. Like I’ve been dropped
in the North Atlantic and slowly freezing over.
Zero
tolerance? Felony? I try to make sense of these terms.
My God, my attempt at a fresh start
has led me to a prison cell in Texas. What the hell am I going to do? I don’t
have money for a lawyer. My only chance would be to call my parents… my
parents. The image of calling them and telling them what has happened makes me
physically sick.
“Alright,
where’s the rest of it?” Grey Mustache is holding the pipe out in
front of him with a beautiful smirk all over his cop face.
“I don’t
have anything else,” I tell him. “I didn’t even realize I was carrying that.”
I can tell
by the steely look in his eyes that this remark has does nothing to dissuade
him. “Don’t give me that. I know you got more. Now tell me where it is, cause
if I send my dog back in there and he finds something else… me and you are
through.” This is his second threat of breaking up with me, but I can tell this
time he really means it. Luckily for me, I know I don’t have anything else.
“Officer I
promise you, I don’t have anything else.”
“I don’t
believe you.” He says immediately. “I can tell just by looking at you that
you’re high right now.”
It’s funny
that he says this because I feel high right now. But not a good, happy weed
high, it’s more like
I-took-way-too-much-acid-and-the-world-is-crashing-around-me high.
“Why would I get high during a
thirty hour road trip?” I try to reason with him. Apparently this was the wrong
tactic to use. I see his smile turn into an ugly sneer.
“Because
this is what kids like you love to do." He says as he leans in closer to me. "I see it every day.”
“Officer, I
swear, that is not who I am, that is not what I did.”
“So I’m a
liar, is that it? You callin me a liar?”
This
response confuses me. Isn’t he the one calling me the liar? How can I be
calling him a liar when he is the one accusing me of something that I’m denying?
Clearly he’s playing some sort of Texas Ranger mind game on me, and it’s almost
working.
“No.” I
state adamantly. “I am not calling you a liar.”
‘So where
are the drugs then?”
“I don’t have any drugs!”
“I don’t have any drugs!”
The two officers
look at each other and murmur back and forth, but I can’t make out what they’re
saying. Even if I could, I’m far too distracted with my mounting legal woes to
care. I can’t believe one drive through Texas has caused so much carnage in my
life. I try to imagine my life after time served. How would I be changed as a person? Who would give me a job? Would my buddies even recognize their former friend, now hardened criminal? I could feel my head spinning.
“OK, Mr.
Walker, you’re free to go.”
At this
point, I’m almost convinced he’s talking to someone else, either that, or this
is another Texas Ranger mind game.
“What?”
“I said,
you’re free to go. Pick up all the stuff that we took out of your car and get
out of here.”
These next two
minutes, as I throw everything back in my car and disappear down the desert,
are probably the closest I’ll ever come to participating in a prison break. Yes,
it’s not quite the same, as most prison breaks don’t include the granted
permission from the police, but by God, it's just as terrifying to me. Even
once I am safely away from the check point and the prying eyes of Texas Law, I
still constantly check my rear view mirror. Just to make sure the desert is
free of any grey mustaches and jogging dogs.
